| His Supplication for himself in Confessing Sins after Finishing the Night Prayer
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(32) وَ كَانَ مِنْ دُعَائِهِ عَلَيْهِ السَّلَامُ بَعْدَ الْفَرَاغِ مِنْ صَلَاةِ اللَّيْلِ لِنَفْسِهِ فِي الِاعْتِرَافِ بِالذَّنْبِ
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| In the Name of Allah, the All-beneficent, the All-merciful.
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بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحيمِ
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| 1- O God, O Possessor of kingdom perpetual in everlastingness,
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1. اللَّهُمَّ يَا ذَا الْمُلْكِ الْمُتَأَبِّدِ بِالْخُلُودِ
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| 2- authority invincible without armies or helpers,
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2. وَ السُّلْطَانِ الْمُمْتَنِعِ بِغَيْرِ جُنُودٍ وَ لَا أَعْوَانٍ .
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| 3- might abiding through aeons past, years gone by, times and days elapsed!
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3. وَ الْعِزِّ الْبَاقِي عَلَى مَرِّ الدُّهُورِ وَ خَوَالِي الْأَعْوَامِ وَ مَوَاضِي الْأَزمَانِ وَ الْأَيَّامِ
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| 4- Thy authority is mighty with a might that knows no bound by being first nor utmost end by being last!
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4. عَزَّ سُلْطَانُكَ عِزّاً لَا حَدَّ لَهُ بِأَوَّلِيَّةٍ ، وَ لَا مُنْتَهَى لَهُ بِآخِرِيَّةٍ
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| 5- Thy kingdom towers high with a towering
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5. وَ اسْتَعْلَى مُلْكُكَ عَلُوّاً
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| before which all things fall down without reaching its term;
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سَقَطَتِ الْأَشْيَاءُ دُونَ بُلُوغِ أَمَدِهِ
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| 6- the least of it which Thou hast kept to Thyself is not reached
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6. وَ لَا يَبْلُغُ أَدْنَى مَا اسْتَأْثَرْتَ بِهِ مِنْ ذَلِكَ
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| by the furthest description of the describers!
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أَقْصَى نَعْتِ النَّاعِتِينَ .
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| 7- Attributes go astray in Thee,
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7. ضَلَّتْ فِيكَ الصِّفَاتُ ،
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| descriptions fall apart below Thee,
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وَ تَفَسَّخَتْ دُونَكَ النُّعُوتُ ،
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| the subtlest of imaginations are bewildered by Thy magnificence!
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وَ حَارَتْ فِي كِبْرِيَائِكَ لَطَائِفُ الْأَوْهَامِ
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| 8- So art Thou: God, the First in Thy firstness,
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8. كَذَلِكَ أَنْتَ اللَّهُ الْأَوَّلُ فِي أَوَّلِيَّتِكَ ،
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| and so art Thou everlastingly, Thou dost not pass away.
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وَ عَلَى ذَلِكَ أَنْتَ دَائِمٌ لَا تَزُولُ
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| 9- But I am the slave, feeble in works,
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9. وَ أَنَا الْعَبْدُ الضَّعِيفُ عَمَلًا ،
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| immense in hopes.
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الْجَسِيمُ أَمَلًا ،
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| The tying links are outside my hand, except what is tied by Thy mercy;
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خَرَجَتْ مِنْ يَدِي أَسْبَابُ الْوُصُلَاتِ إِلَّا مَا وَصَلَهُ رَحْمَتُكَ ،
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| the bonds of hopes have been cut away from me, except the pardon to which I hold fast.
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وَ تَقَطَّعَتْ عَنِّي عِصَمُ الْآمَالِ إِلَّا مَا أَنَا مُعْتَصِمٌ بِهِ مِنْ عَفْوِكَ
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| 10- Little on my part is the obedience toward Thee upon which I count,
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10. قَلَّ عِنْدِي مَا أَعْتَدُّ بِهِ مِنْ طَاعَتِكَ ،
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| and great against me the disobedience toward Thee to which I have reverted.
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و كَثُرَ عَلَيَّ مَا أَبُوءُ بِهِ مِنْ مَعْصِيَتِكَ
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| But pardoning Thy slave will not constrain Thee, even if he be bad,
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وَ لَنْ يَضِيقَ عَلَيْكَ عَفْوٌ عَنْ عَبْدِكَ وَ إِنْ أَسَاءَ ،
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| so pardon me!
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فَاعْفُ عَنِّي .
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| 11- O God, Thy knowledge watches over hidden works,
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11. اللَّهُمَّ وَ قَدْ أَشْرَفَ عَلَى خَفَايَا الْأَعْمَالِ عِلْمُكَ ،
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| every covered thing is exposed before Thy awareness,
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وَ انْكَشَفَ كُلُّ مَسْتُورٍ دُونَ خُبْرِكَ ،
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| the intricacies of things are not concealed from Thee,
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وَ لَا تَنْطَوِي عَنْكَ دَقَائِقُ الْأُمُورِ ،
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| and unseen mysteries slip not away from Thee.
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وَ لَا تَعْزُبُ عَنْكَ غَيِّبَاتُ السَّرَائِرِ
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| 12- But over me Thy enemy has gained mastery:
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12. وَ قَدِ اسْتَحْوَذَ عَلَيَّ عَدُوُّكَ
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| He asked a delay from Thee to lead me astray, and Thou gavest him the delay!
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الَّذِي اسْتَنْظَرَكَ لِغَوَايَتِي فَأَنْظَرْتَهُ ،
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| He asked a respite from Thee until the Day of Doom to misguide me,
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وَ اسْتَمْهَلَكَ إِلَى يَوْمِ الدِّينِ لِإِضْلَالِي
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| and Thou gavest him the respite!
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فَأَمْهَلْتَهُ .
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| 13- So he threw me down, though I had fled to Thee from
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13. فَأَوْقَعَنِي وَ قَدْ هَرَبْتُ إِلَيْكَ مِنْ
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| small, ruinous sins
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صَغَائِرِ ذُنُوبٍ مُوبِقَةٍ ،
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| and great, deadly works,
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وَ كَبَائِرِ أَعْمَالٍ مُرْدِيَةٍ
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| until, when I had yielded to disobeying Thee
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حَتَّى إِذَا قَارَفْتُ مَعْصِيَتَكَ ،
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| and merited Thy anger through my bad efforts,
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وَ اسْتَوْجَبْتُ بِسُوءِ سَعْيِي سَخْطَتَكَ ،
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| he turned the bridle of his treachery away from me,
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فَتَلَ عَنِّي عِذَارَ غَدْرِهِ ،
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| met me with the word of his ingratitude,
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وَ تَلَقَّانِي بِكَلِمَةِ كُفْرِهِ ،
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| undertook to be quit of me,
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وَ تَوَلَّى الْبَرَاءَةَ مِنِّي ،
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| turned his back to flee from me,
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وَ أَدْبَرَ مُوَلِّياً عَنِّي ،
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| threw me to the desert of Thy wrath alone,
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فَأَصْحَرَنِي لِغَضَبِكَ فَرِيداً ،
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| and sent me as an outcast into the courtyard of Thy vengeance.
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وَ أَخْرَجَنِي إِلَى فِنَاءِ نَقِمَتِكَ طَرِيداً .
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| 14- There is no intercessor to intercede for me with Thee,
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14. لَا شَفِيعٌ يَشْفَعُ لِي إِلَيْكَ ،
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| no protector to make me feel secure against Thee,
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وَ لَا خَفِيرٌ يُؤْمِنُنِي عَلَيْكَ ،
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| no fortress to veil me from Thee,
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وَ لَا حِصْنٌ يَحْجُبُنِي عَنْكَ ،
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| no shelter in which to seek asylum apart from Thee!
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وَ لَا مَلَاذٌ أَلْجَأُ إِلَيْهِ مِنْكَ .
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| 15- This is the station of him who takes refuge with Thee,
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15. فَهَذَا مَقَامُ الْعَائِذِ بِكَ ،
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| the place of the confessor to Thee:
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وَ مَحَلُّ الْمُعْتَرِفِ لَكَ ،
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| Let not Thy bounty be too narrow for me,
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فَلَا يَضِيقَنَّ عَنِّي فَضْلُكَ ،
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| let not Thy pardon fall short of me!
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وَ لَا يَقْصُرَنَّ دُونِي عَفْوُكَ ،
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| Let me not be the most disappointed of Thy repentant servants,
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وَ لَا أَكُنْ أَخْيَبَ عِبَادِكَ التَّائِبِينَ ،
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| nor the most despairing of those who come to Thee with expectations!
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وَ لَا أَقْنَطَ وُفُودِكَ الْآمِلِينَ ،
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| Forgive me, surely Thou art the best of the forgivers!
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وَ اغْفِرْ لِي ، إِنَّكَ خَيْرُ الْغَافِرِينَ .
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| 16- O God, Thou commanded me, and I refrained,
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16. اللَّهُمَّ إِنَّكَ أَمَرْتَنِي فَتَرَكْتُ ،
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| Thou prohibited me, and I committed.
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وَ نَهَيْتَنِي فَرَكِبْتُ ،
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| evil thoughts tempted me to offend, and I was negligent.
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وَ سَوَّلَ لِيَ الْخَطَاءَ خَاطِرُ السُّوءِ فَفَرَّطْتُ .
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| 17- I cannot call upon daytime to witness my fasting,
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17. وَ لَا أَسْتَشْهِدُ عَلَى صِيَامِي نَهَاراً ،
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| nor can I seek sanctuary in night because of my vigil;
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وَ لَا أَسْتَجِيرُ بِتَهَجُّدِي لَيْلًا ،
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| no Sunna praises me for keeping it alive,
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وَ لَا تُثْنِي عَلَيَّ بِإِحْيَائِهَا سُنَّةٌ
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| only Thy obligations, he who neglects which has perished.
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حَاشَا فُرُوضِكَ الَّتِي مَنْ ضَيَّعَهَا هَلَكَ .
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| 18- I cannot seek access to Thee through the excellence of a supererogatory work,
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18. وَ لَسْتُ أَتَوَسَّلُ إِلَيْكَ بِفَضْلِ نَافِلَةٍ
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| given the many duties of Thy obligations of which I have been heedless
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مَعَ كَثِيرِ مَا أَغْفَلْتُ مِنْ وَظَائِفِ فُرُوضِكَ ،
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| and the stations of Thy bounds which I have transgressed,
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وَ تَعَدَّيْتُ عَنْ مَقَامَاتِ حُدُودِكَ
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| thereby violating sacred things
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إِلَى حُرُمَاتٍ انْتَهَكْتُهَا ،
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| and committing great sins,
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وَ كَبَائِرِ ذُنُوبٍ اجْتَرَحْتُهَا ،
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| though Thou hast given me safety from their disgraces as a covering.
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كَانَتْ عَافِيَتُكَ لِي مِنْ فَضَائِحِهَا سِتْراً .
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| 19- This is the station of him who is
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19. وَ هَذَا مَقَامُ مَنِ
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| ashamed of himself before Thee,
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اسْتَحْيَا لِنَفْسِهِ مِنْكَ ،
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| angry with himself, and satisfied with Thee.
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وَ سَخِطَ عَلَيْهَا ، وَ رَضِيَ عَنْكَ ،
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| He meets Thee with a humble soul,
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فَتَلَقَّاكَ بِنَفْسٍ خَاشِعَةٍ ،
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| a neck bent down, a back heavy with offenses,
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وَ رَقَبَةٍ خَاضِعَةٍ ، وَ ظَهْرٍ مُثْقَلٍ مِنَ الْخَطَايَا
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| hesitating between longing for Thee and fear of Thee.
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وَاقِفاً بَيْنَ الرَّغْبَةِ إِلَيْكَ وَ الرَّهْبَةِ مِنْكَ .
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| 20- Thou art the most worthy of those in whom he might hope,
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20. وَ أَنْتَ أَوْلَى مَنْ رَجَاهُ ،
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| the most deserving for him to dread and fear.
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وَ أَحَقُّ مَنْ خَشِيَهُ وَ اتَّقَاهُ ،
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| So give me, my Lord, what I hope for,
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فَأَعْطِنِي يَا رَبِّ مَا رَجَوْتُ ،
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| make me secure against what frightens me, and act kindly toward me with the kindly act of mercy!
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وَ آمِنِّي مَا حَذِرْتُ ، وَ عُدْ عَلَيَّ بِعَائِدَةِ رَحْمَتِكَ ،
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| Surely Thou art the most generous of those from whom are asked!
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إِنَّكَ أَكْرَمُ الْمَسْئُولِينَ .
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| 21- O God, since Thou hast covered me with Thy pardon
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21. اللَّهُمَّ وَ إِذْ سَتَرْتَنِي بِعَفْوِكَ ،
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| and shielded me with Thy bounty
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وَ تَغَمَّدْتَنِي بِفَضْلِكَ
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| in the abode of annihilation and the presence of equals,
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فِي دَارِ الْفَنَاءِ بِحَضْرَةِ الْأَكْفَاءِ ،
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| grant me sanctuary from the disgraces of the Abode of Subsistence
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فَأَجِرْنِي مِنْ فَضِيحَاتِ دَارِ الْبَقَاءِ
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| at the standing places of the Witnesses
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عِنْدَ مَوَاقِفِ الْأَشْهَادِ
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| (the angels brought nigh, the messengers honoured,
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مِنَ الْمَلَائِكَةِ الْمُقَرَّبِينَ ، وَ الرُّسُلِ الْمُكَرَّمِينَ ،
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| the martyrs, the righteous)
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وَ الشُّهَدَاءِ وَ الصَّالِحِينَ ،
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| before the neighbour from whom I have hidden my evil deeds
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مِنْ جَارٍ كُنْتُ أُكَاتِمُهُ سَيِّئَاتِي ،
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| and the womb relative before whom I feel ashamed in my secret thoughts!
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وَ مِنْ ذِي رَحِمٍ كُنْتُ أَحْتَشِمُ مِنْهُ فِي سَرِيرَاتِي .
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| 22- I trust them not, my Lord, to cover me over,
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22. لَمْ أَثِقْ بِهِمْ رَبِّ فِي السِّتْرِ عَلَيَّ ،
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| but I trust Thee, my Lord, to forgive me!
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وَ وَثِقْتُ بِكَ رَبِّ فِي الْمَغْفِرَةِ لِي ،
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| Thou art the most worthy of those in whom confidence is had,
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وَ أَنْتَ أَوْلَى مَنْ وُثِقَ بِهِ ،
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| the most giving of those who are besought,
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وَ أَعْطَى مَنْ رُغِبَ إِلَيْهِ ،
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| and the most clement of those from whom mercy is asked.
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وَ أَرْأَفُ مَنِ اسْتُرْحِمَ ،
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| So have mercy upon me!
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فَارْحَمْنِي .
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| 23- O God, Thou caused me to descend as mean water
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23. اللَّهُمَّ وَ أَنْتَ حَدَرْتَنِي مَاءً مَهِيناً
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| from loins of narrow bones and tight passages
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مِنْ صُلْبٍ مُتَضَايِقِ الْعِظَامِ ، حَرِجِ الْمَسَالِكِ
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| into a constricted womb which Thou hadst covered with veils;
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إِلَى رَحِمٍ ضَيِّقَةٍ سَتَرْتَهَا بِالْحُجُبِ ،
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| Thou turned me about from state to state
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تُصَرِّفُنِي حَالًا عَنْ حَالٍ
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| until Thou tookest me to the completion of the form
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حَتَّى انْتَهَيْتَ بِي إِلَى تَمَامِ الصُّورَةِ ،
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| and fixed within me the bodily parts,
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وَ أَثْبَتَّ فِيَّ الْجَوَارِحَ
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| as Thou hast described in Thy Book:
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كَمَا نَعَتَّ فِي كِتَابِكَ
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| a drop, then a clot,
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نُطْفَةً ثُمَّ عَلَقَةً
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| then a tissue, then bones,
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ثُمَّ مُضْغَةً ثُمَّ عَظْماً
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| then Thou garmented the bones with flesh,
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ثُمَّ كَسَوْتَ الْعِظَامَ لَحْماً ،
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| then Thou produced me as another creature as Thou willed.
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ثُمَّ أَنْشَأْتَنِي خَلْقاً آخَرَ كَمَا شِئْتَ .
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| 24- Then, when I needed Thy provision,
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24. حَتَّى إِذَا احْتَجْتُ إِلَى رِزْقِكَ ،
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| and could not do without the aid of Thy bounty,
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وَ لَمْ أَسْتَغْنِ عَنْ غِيَاثِ فَضْلِكَ ،
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| Thou appointed for me a nourishment from the bounty of the food and drink which Thou bestowed upon Thy handmaid
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جَعَلْتَ لِي قُوتاً مِنْ فَضْلِ طَعَامٍ وَ شَرَابٍ أَجْرَيْتَهُ لِأَمَتِكَ
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| in whose belly Thou gavest me to rest
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الَّتِي أَسْكَنْتَنِي جَوْفَهَا ،
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| and in the lodging of whose womb Thou deposited me.
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وَ أَوْدَعْتَنِي قَرَارَ رَحِمِهَا
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| 25- Hadst Thou entrusted me in those states, my Lord, to my own force
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25. وَ لَوْ تَكِلُنِي يَا رَبِّ فِي تِلْكَ الْحَالَاتِ إِلَى حَوْلِي ،
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| or driven me to have recourse to my own strength,
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أَوْ تَضْطَرُّنِي إِلَى قُوَّتِي
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| force would have been removed from me
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لَكَانَ الْحَوْلُ عَنِّي مُعْتَزِلًا ،
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| and strength taken far away.
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وَ لَكَانَتِ الْقُوَّةُ مِنِّي بَعِيدَةً .
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| 26. So Thou hast fed me through Thy bounty with the food of the Good, the Gentle;
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26. فَغَذَوْتَنِي بِفَضْلِكَ غِذَاءَ الْبَرِّ اللَّطِيفِ ،
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| Thou hast done that for me in graciousness toward me
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تَفْعَلُ ذَلِكَ بِي تَطَوُّلًا عَلَيَّ
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| up to this my present point.
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إِلَى غَايَتِي هَذِهِ ،
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| I do not lack Thy goodness,
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لَا أَعْدَمُ بِرَّكَ ،
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| nor does Thy benefaction keep me waiting.
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وَ لَا يُبْطِئُ بِي حُسْنُ صَنِيعِكَ ،
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| Yet with all that, my trust has not become firm enough
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وَ لَا تَتَأَكَّدُ مَعَ ذَلِكَ ثِقَتِي
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| that I might free myself for that which is more favoured by Thee.
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فَأَتَفَرَّغَ لِمَا هُوَ أَحْظَى لِي عِنْدَكَ .
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| 27- Satan has taken possession of my reins
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27. قَدْ مَلَكَ الشَّيْطَانُ عِنَانِي
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| through my distrust and frail certainty.
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فِي سُوءِ الظَّنِّ وَ ضَعْفِ الْيَقِينِ ،
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| I complain of his evil neighbourhood with me
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فَأَنَا أَشْكُو سُوءَ مُجَاوَرَتِهِ لِي ،
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| and my soul's obedience toward him!
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وَ طَاعَةَ نَفْسِي لَهُ ،
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| I ask Thee to preserve me against his domination,
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وَ أَسْتَعْصِمُكَ مِنْ مَلَكَتِهِ ،
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| and I plead with Thee to turn his trickery away from me!
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وَ أَتَضَرَّعُ إِلَيْكَ فِي صَرْفِ كَيْدِهِ عَنِّي .
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| 28- I ask Thee to make the path to my provision easy,
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28. وَ أَسْأَلُكَ فِي أَنْ تُسَهِّلَ إِلَى رِزْقِي سَبِيلًا ،
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| since to Thee belongs praise for Thy beginning with immense favours
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فَلَكَ الْحَمْدُ عَلَى ابْتِدَائِكَ بِالنِّعَمِ الْجِسَامِ ،
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| and Thy inspiring gratitude for beneficence and bestowing favour!
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وَ إِلْهَامِكَ الشُّكْرَ عَلَى الْإِحْسَانِ وَ الْإِنْعَامِ ،
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| Bless Muhammad and his Household,
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فَصَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَ آلِهِ ،
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| and make the way to my provision easy for me!
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وَ سَهِّلْ عَلَيَّ رِزْقِي ،
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| [I ask Thee] to make me content
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وَ أَنْ تُقَنِّعَنِي بِتَقْدِيرِكَ لِي ،
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| with Thy ordainment for me, to make me satisfied with my lot
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وَ أَنْ تُرْضِيَنِي بِحِصَّتِي فِيمَا قَسَمْتَ لِي ،
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| in that which Thou hast apportioned for me and to place what has gone of my body and my life-span
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وَ أَنْ تَجْعَلَ مَا ذَهَبَ مِنْ جِسْمِي وَ عُمُرِي
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| into the path of Thy obedience!
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فِي سَبِيلِ طَاعَتِكَ ،
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| Surely Thou art the Best of providers!
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إِنَّكَ خَيْرُ الرَّازِقِينَ .
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| 29- O God, I seek refuge in Thee from the Fire
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29. اللَّهُمَّ إِنِّي أَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنْ نَارٍ
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